today quite emo.. was veri unhappy.. blog something veri sad and post it but now i dun wanna publish it le i save it in draft.. coz i dun wish him to noe so much tt i have done for him.. he oso dun care de.. so no point..
was slacking the whole afternoon.. tho was going chalet early de but nvr.. father went to work n mother went to auntie's husband the mother funeral.. so leave me 1 person at hm.. was online till 2 plus den off the com.. after tt went to sleep till 4plus and lie on the bed awhile.. hungry le jiu make milo n eat biscuit..
after tt mother came hm.. and before she wanna go buy 4D she scold me.. sae i keep on lying down den nvr help her do things.. she den ask me to keep clothes n wash my school shoes.. but was so tired.. cannot even rest awhile la.. den went to kep clothes for her.. abt 5 plus went to bathe to get ready to go to the chalet.. when i'm ready i tho she's was ready den i ask her wanna call n ask my uncle to wakie not coz he fetching us.. den she scold me.. so piss with her la.. cannot tok properly de..
after tt went chalet at abt 7 plus den gt traffic jam den was late.. 8 plus den reach dere n start eating.. veri less ppl go.. 2 of my cousin oso nvr go.. coz they r studying at hm.. thot was going to stay dere den veri happy de in the end nvr.. den father thot of going hm ltr den but mother insist of going hm early coz gt alot of things to take.. so idiot.. early noe dun go den go study with alicia they all la.. ARGHH!! waste time.. go dere 2 hrs jiu come hm liaoz le..

me emoing at the beach!

HOW I WISH HE WAS BESIDE ME AND WE ARE ENJOYING THE BREEZE AT THE BEACH!! BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN!!

I believed you when you said you loved me because we were closer than friends, but you said you'd love me forever and ever and never ends, but where is all the promised??

I LOVE YOU!! <3

hahax.. today brought tt recycle bag to school.. those guys take the bag so funny la.. like gay lyk tt.. OPPS!! :x was so ps.. den alicia call me den we thot of meeting those guys at the coffeeshop opposite school den go to school together den at least not so ps.. LOL!! but in the end we nvr meet them.. we meet each other at the over head bridge near the school and we walk in together..

after that we dun have recess as we have food to eat ltr.. den we went theatrette to have our graduation ceremony.. wa the tok was boring and we were commending abt the speaker that they are self entertaining.. LOL!! :p after tt went down to have our food.. so fast no more le.. but we manage to grab so.. LOL!!

after school stay at canteen with clara they all n i slept dere.. hahax.. abt 2 went home den online n went to print notes on geo.. after tt bro come back and wanna take bbq stuff to book in.. den he ask me down to help him to take things up if the car have no place to put, and so i went down...

after tt i came up i went to bathe and prepare to go to the library to meet alicia n yiling they all.. wan fong call and sae wanna go library together and o we walk to library together.. on the way i bought green tea n wan fong bought lychee tea.. went to libray study awhile and went down to eat.. eat le jiu go back to study.. keith was sitting at our table and he very funny.. keep making us laugh lyk hell.. went to mos burger to find shaun they all and reach dere they wanna leave le.. so we went to arcade to play.. after tt came hm and here am i blogging..

came hm on computer and i chattted wif him online.. ask him how's his day today he sae not veri enjoyable coz he went to play initial d 4 with the wrong person.. den i ask him who he sae amanda.. was so disappointed and heartbroken.. *sobz* didn't expect him to go and play with a gal.. expect him to go n play with a guy.. type the message le den 4get to send it to him and when i open the window again he offline le.. didn't even sae bye or wat to me.. was crying jus now.. so sway.. have 2 bad news today.. heard from chik heng abt the gal tt lyk him and abt this thingy above.. haiz!! so disappointed!! *sobz* was crying jus now..

We look at each other differently, the spark is fading fast. It hurts to be without you, yet I just put on a smile and keep walking!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

PRECIOUS BIG DAY!!

ytd slept at 3am.. was making precious birthday present make till veri tired le but i tell myself for the sake of him i must hang on and finish everything den i can go n sleep... i think its all worth it... :D IT'S THE POWER OF LOVE!!

today morning it's raining n was carrying precious birthday present to school and it was heavy but nvm.. reach school it was wet.. but let it dry antomatically.. everybody was asking today my birthday ar.. den i sae no.. it's his.. den they ooo... LOL!! they oso ask wat i buy for them.. den i sae cannot tell them.. it's bu neng shuo de mi mi.. LOL!! :p

recess time was waiting for him to come up to his class den i pass him his presents.. was veri panic and scared coz veri ps.. but bell ring le he oso haven go back to his class den i was veri panic coz teacher come le den i ask clara how den she sae take the present go out to wait for him first so we went out den after awhile he came up n shaun shouted his name n wish him happy bithday n he saw me n clara waving to him den he walk over.. pass him the present n wish him n tell him to becareful coz dere's glass inside n jus nice esther n anna came out of the toilet den they saw n they wish him happy birthday too..

after scool went to the toilet den take out my phone to call alicia.. was so surprised tt he mag me and thank me and tell me tt the present is nice.. and this makes my day happier.. :D after tt went library to study with lots of ppl den after studying kz had an idea tml take recycle bag to school and everybody agreed and we went to NTUC to buy... so tml we will be lyk retards.. but nvm.. it's fun.. :D

now i am talking to him happily.. today's coversation is the longest after we break.. so happy.. he sae he lyk the lamp alot n he even took a pic of it n put it as his display picture in msn and put it in frenster.. he keep saying thank you to me and its lyk so formal den i keep telling him welcome.. den after awhile i tell him dun keep saying thanks le will make me ps de.. hahax.. :D

TODAY IS YOUR BIG DAY AND HOPE YOU ENJOY!!

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS LIKE A JOURNEY STARTING FOREVER AND ENDING LIKE NEVER!!

I LOVE YOU!!<3

today alot of ppl nvr go school.. coz they think go school no use coz they dun have to mood to study in school.. so they rather stay at hm and do self study...

art lesson finally drew something at the pressure of yiling.. coz she keep asking me to draw.. thanks for her motivation.. hahax.. :D den after that EL lesson watch nite at the meusem.. watch till veri tired and i fell asleep.. when i wakie i saw nobody sleeping except for me.. but nvm i watch the show before.. after recess all the period is so bored.. it's true that we cannot study in school.. hahax.. :p after that maths lesson went to canteen as gana nvr come den he was dere too.. so happy can see him.. :D

after school skip remedial den stay in class to wait for pierre n kai yang to finish playing their card game.. i was learning how to solve the rubiks cube n i finally learn how to solve 1 side liaoz le.. :D went pierre hse awhile den went to meet alicia n wf at amk central.. went popular to buy things for precious.. after that went to buy bubble tea n french fries den we walk home to my hse for tuition..

after tuition they stay for awhile and i do precious birthday present.. den went down to buy wrapping paper and accompany them to coffeeshop to eat.. jus bathe and here am i blogging.. going to do lots of things liaoz le.. tonight i gonna sleep late to make precious present.. it's all worth it.. :D

I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

time flies!! 'n' levels is next week le.. so fast.. AHHHH!! haven study... :p today is a quite normal day... as usual wakie to school.. study study study.. tok alot of things in class with alicia they all.. still sing kindergarden songs.. hahax.. lyk small kids.. but lucky we nvr forget those songs.. LOL!!

after that got remedial nvr go.. i skip lesson.. hahax... :p ermm. den went central wif clara to find colour sand for precious the preset but cannot find.. walk everywhere oso dun have.. :( dunno how lei.. so sian.. cannot think of any idea..

after that went to clara hse den went for dinner at tampines.. at first was veri bored and tired coz nth to do den after that the food is here le jiu start eating and toking and laughing le.. hahax.. today is quite a fun day.. :D

5 more days for 'n' levels!!!

2 more days to precious birthday!!!

As Part Of You Has Grown In Me, Together Forever Shall We Be, Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

hahax.. wakie to go to school... get of of hse late coz go check where is my uniform.. father take mooncake for me to bring to school to eat.. hahax.. it's double yolk!! yeah!! :D

today's lesson was bored but bo bian oso must study.. wish that got teacher nvr come but all got come.. so need to study liaoz le.. have no mood to study now.. dunno why.. maybe because i think too much abt him bah.. wish that his birthday faster over and my 'n' levels faster over..

6 days to 'n level liaoz le.. must study study study.. still need to do art.. sian.. draw draw draw.. :(

after school went AMK S11 with clara to eat ban mian den went popular to buy paper hearts to fold for precious.. going to fold loads of hearts for him.. den after that went hm coz ltr got tuition.. reach hm den do some paper hearts den felt veri tired le so went to sleep.. wakie and went to iron clothes and bathe and get ready for tuition..

alicia was late for tuition coz she saw a ah pek that look like a pervert.. so she nvr take the same lift as the man and she waited for the next lift.. tuition learn lots of things, teacher keep asking us to remember this remember that.. make till our brain is filled with so many things.. after tuition we talk abt alot of things.. hahax.. its a secret.. :p she went home and here i am blogging.. :D

A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

today wakie to go for tuition.. as usual was late.. coz ytd slept at 3am.. den wanna go to sleep but cannot sleep... den found out that my uniform was not washed and i went to tell my father and he sae after tuition come back and wash the uniform.. so sian.. how i wish i have a maid sia.. :( den i tell him i going study den he sae come back wash first den go out again...

went tuition den teacher start suaning me.. sae today suddenly rain coz i got go for tuition.. den after that slack dere.. was making hearts for precious.. make 3 packets le.. wait till 4.30pm coz 4.30pm having lesson again.. so bored.. nvr come back and wash the clothes.. now put the clothes in the washing machines to wash le.. wish tml can dry.. chik heng forget to take his water bottle hm from tuition so he ask me to bring along with me den after that pass to him..

after tuition went to library to meet melissa den saw pierre n scott den ask them where is melissa so i went to find her.. told her scott was dere n she wanted to go n c den i accompany her... went den sit and chat awhile.. was so tired n had no energy to talk n walk le.. about 8.15 went hm.. den call chik heng ask him to meet me at my hse downstairs den i pass him his waer bottle... his tone on the phone was like so gentle la.. LOL!!

below is pictures of things that i bought for him.. but it's not veri updated.. hahax.. :p

the muva lamp!!

hearts that i have folded for him!!

pencil box!!

birthday card!!

box to put those thingy!!

There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

happy day!! :D

hahax.. as usual wakie and den wait for father to wakie.. today he wakie so late abt 10am.. den after that we went down to the coffeeshop to have breakfast.. came home use computer till 11 plus den father going work le.. i wake clara up as we going out.. called her she answer the phone call den she tell me she dreaming den i call her.. hahax.. :p

went out and meet clara at jubilee.. went jubilee popular to buy so stuff to make hearts for precious.. after tt went to buy pencil box from OP (ocean pacific) for precious also.. den went to take mrt to city hall den walk to marina square.. on the way dere saw hock heng.. sae hi to him den he never reply and the worst thing is he look at us like stranger like that lo.. so we continue walking.. den we thinking if we will meet somemore ppl not.. hahax..

went marina square to buy muva lamp for precious oso.. den tired of walking le.. so we decided to find a place to sit and clara play her rubic cube and i try folding my hearts for him.. the first 1 is not sucessful den the 2nd de can liaoz le.. so happy.. hahax.. after that we went to buy precious's birthday card and went pasir ris to walk.. den went in to a shop saw nice and can fit the present for precious the box so i bought it.. after that went to eat KFC den went hm..

actually wanna go home de den pierre call clara when we reach the amk mrt so he ask us to meet them in hub so we meet them dere lo.. they wanna go eat den clara came to my hse.. she play game i do the hearts den destroy 2 hearts again but nvm tml going to buy more den oso buy the container to put it.. after that pierre came den he wanna try making the heart but he cannot make nicely so he gave up.. pierre and clara jus leave not long.. below is some pics that we take.. will take pics of his birthday present tml.. now it's too late le and i;m abit lazy.. :x

It takes a minute to have a crush on you, an hour to like you, and an day to love you... but it takes a lifetime to forget you!!

I LOVE YOU!!

as usual thing wakie and go to school.. today's weather was lyk super duper stuffy and hot.. cannot take it man.. everybody was lyk complaining.. even the wind is also hot.. but oso no choice need to continue to study.. LOL!!

after school wanna walk out of school le den saw melissa and joyce and melissa shout my name at the 2nd floor.. den we shout back by replying them.. hahax.. so me n clara went to opposite coffeeshop to book table for them first.. luckily we found a place den we put our bag.. went to pei clara to buy mixed rice for her pear den she going to his hse liaoz le.. but before she leave i ask her wait for me den i went back ask melissa they all faster.. so melissa came and joyce wait for munhan... so clara can go find her bf liaoz le..

aaron they all everytime suan me kana ps by her but i sae nvm la.. coz there's melissa to pei me mah. LOL!! so after that joyce n terrance came.. after awhile munhan and patrick came.. so eat with them.. they so funny.. :D

My world crumbles, everything falls around me and I stand alone, I cry alone, I search alone for something I can never find. But this still doesn't compare to what it felt like to lose you!!

I LOVE YOU!!

today quite slack.. pe was fun but there's this pig scold me xxxxx coz i accidentally step on her shoe den i sae sorry den i defending den she scold me le.. just cannot take it that they lose.. not i wanna be proud or wat but when i standing dere she keep saying that their group must win but in the end lose.. all thanks to liping for the last shot.. :D but play till half feel lyk vomitting coz too hungry le.. hahax.. but i manage to finish the game.. :D

after school had no remedial den slack in class till 3 plus den go opposite coffeeshop eat.. was so hungry..

missing him every moment.. didn't talk to him for quite long le.. wonder how's his result.. wish it turns out to be good bah.. everytime in school must peep at him and its so tiring.. but nvr see him so uncomfortable.. so its better to be tiring den nth..

You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and even then you'll be in my heart!!

I LOVE YOU!!

REALLY DISSAPOINTED!!

haiz.. it's all abt him again.. feel lyk crying out now but tears just dun wanna fall from my eyes.. its so sad.. tok to him in msn hoping that he will reply but there's no reply from him.. thinking dun give ourseleves too much hope, the outcome may make you dissapointed... haiz.. maybe we are not fated to be together bah.. it hurts alot.. i dunno wat to do.. i just have no mood to study.. wanted to give up but i just cannot.. D: wanna concentrate on studies oso cannot.. D: as i'm typing tears just filled my eyes and tears started to roll down from my face.. my heart is like a ship sinking deeper and deeper.. haiz.. *heartbroken*

all i want to sae is no matter how much hurt that you have caused, i don't mind as its all worth it!!

I LOVE YOU!!

sian!!

as usual wakie to go school.. miracle that father wakie so early den when i wakie i saw him using the washing machine to wash clothes le.. den walk to kitchen to brush teeth saw the bread that he prepare for me is ready le.. so early.. LOL!! :D so lucky to have this father.. love him lots.. :D

went to school, first 2 period was art and i slack for that 2 period.. so sian.. dunno wat to draw.. drawing makes me very sian liaoz le.. den after that another 2 period to slack.. as shirley toh was sick and went home.. so we at canteen tok to mary (relief teacher).. and the rest of the day was oso very slack..

haiz.. did not manage to look at him for many times coz he always MIA.. so sad.. his good fren (zihua) came to our class to tok to kz and an.. now he oso dun bother to look over n take a glance at me le.. last time still have de but now.. HAIZ!! it's so hard to love him.. :( everybody ask me to give up but i ready dun wanna give up coz i love him lots.. i'm so lost and confuse..

I want you to know that I don't regret a single moment I spent on you!!

I LOVE YOU!!

school starts!!

as usual wakie to go to school... father didn't wakie to make breakfast for me to eat and bring to school and so i have nothing to eat for recess..

pei clara go down to buy her bao and snacks den bring food back to class and that is not allowed but we heck care.. LOL!! :p BAD STUDENT RITE?? hahax.. dun feel lyk eating that's why nvr buy any food and oso wanted to save money for PRECIOUS present.. keep scrimping and saving for the pass one month plus..

the science lab auntie (irene) sae i thin le.. en she ask me issit jian fei den i sae no la.. i tell her i saving money.. den she sae save money oso must eat.. den i sae ok.. 1 day only eat 1 meal nia.. not bad ar.. :p clara today sae if i faint she will dun care coz i huo gai.. so bad.. :(

after that wanted to skip remedial de den mrs leong come le i oso cannot go le.. so the rest of the people got their names in minor offence book.. so after the remedial went home..

it's just a normal day where i get to see him anytime i want.. but sometimes when i dun see him i miss him more.. wonder if he will miss me mah.. *slap* valerie wake up.. he will not miss u de.. today is oso a sad day as its the 3rd month we break le.. :( sobs.. hope to be with him again!! but i think its impossible..

Nothing hurts more than realising you meant everything to me, but I meant nothing to you!!

I LOVE YOU!!

special school holiday!!

hahax.. today no school.. wakie and eat breakfast at hm.. father make half-boiled eggs and milo for me.. :D after that went down to buy things as mother wanna make wu xiang...

went out at abt 2plus.. went to father work place to pass things to his boss and take his document back hm to do den went marine parade to shop.. never go dere to shop before.. went to have dinner at swensens.. have a nice meal dere.. very long nvr have such a nice meal liaoz le coz parents are busy working.. spend abt 90 plus dollars dere.. so expensive.. thot of asking clara go dere walk walk on next saturday.. but when i call her she tell me she at pasir ris and she say its a new shopping mall den she sae she saw a watch quite nice $13.. so i sae next saturday go dere shop.. next saturday have so many place to go.. going to shop till crazy.. LOL!! :p

going to buy his birthday present oso.. :D going to buy many many things for him!! i am willing to spend all my money on him.. spend lots of time to save money for his present and i even nvr eat.. one day only eat 1 meal.. but its all worth it.. :D

Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.

I LOVE YOU!! <3

tired day!!

another day is going pass already and it's super duper fast!! yeah tml no school.. but cannot go out.. parents no work den need to pei them.. :(

wake up late for tuition today so rush to bathe and do all my stuff den call my frens and they tell me they not going den i slowly le.. dun think i wanna go tuition oso.. thot of going tuition dere to pay fees but father sae next week coz today raining.. in the end went breakfast with parents..

came back home and pack my room till now.. threw lots of stuff.. all no use de.. now so tired le.. clean and change the position of my bed and shelf too.. and it look like a new room again.. :D

wanted to rest but auntie they all came and den ltr cute baby cousin came.. after awhile they went back home and here i am blogging..

how i wish i can be with you and never leave you again!!

I LOVE YOU!! <3

boring day!!

wow!! another day just ends like that!! time flies!!
as usual, wakie went downstairs to have breakfast with parents den came home watch television programme awhile den nothing intereting to watch le so use the computer.. parents started to prepare for work.. after parents went to work i off the computer den went to sleep..
wakie at 4pm and use computer again den saw clara online and she talk to me.. we chatted awhile den she wanna offline le coz she wanna sleep.. PIG!! :p after awhile i oso went offline and went to watch television programme.. watch the 7pm channel 8 show it's really touching and meaningful..
haiz!! boring days keep making me think of him!! just cannot get his name and everything out of my head.. he has really stolen my heart away.. keep asking myself did he go out today?? what is he doing now?? is he online now?? and many other questions.. feel like messaging him but dunno what to message den never msg.. haiz!! miss him lots.. wanna talk to him but most probably he oso dun wanna talk to me.. D:

HIM & ME!! <3

LOVE HIM LOTS!! <3

FLOWER THAT HE GAVE!! <3

<3

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

I LOVE YOU!! <3

today's outing!!

today went to amk (jubilee) to meet clara.. at xin tian di slack for awhile den went to buy ice-cream from MR BEAN den proceed on to AMK HUB to buy clara's mushroom!! den walk in hub till sian le, so we decided to go to the AMK station to see where we wanna go.. so we decided to go to JUNCTION 8 to walk!!
went to arcade and i spend $6 and clara spend $7 to play a lame game, it is to catch the toy, but unfortunately cannot catch dao!! :( it's a very cute froggy!!
after that, we both left not much money and so decided to go back AMK to have our dinner at S11.. but before that we went to AMK HUB arcade to look for pierre they all, they not there.. den clara sae they maybe at JUBILEE arcade, so we went there but they not there!! so i ask clara wanna call pierre not den she agree and i pass her my phone as her phone got problem.. after calling pierre he sae he at town (MARINA SQUARE) so we went there to find them!!
after finding them, at a corner slack awhile first den they decide to go carl's junior to eat.. the things there is expensive and its my first time going dere to eat so nvm bah!! the burger is like so big and i have difficulties eating it as i have a small mouth!! LOL!! :p keep figuring wanna eat where first!! LOL!! after that went home sweet home and this is the time that i post the photos that i have take with my GIRLFRIEND!! :p

ME!! PRETTY!! :p

The Pretty US!!! :D

Best Buddy!! <3

we make a perfect match!! :D

if i could be a sky, i would choose to have YOU this brightest star to guide me through!!
I LOVE YOU!! <3

today was a emo day in school!!

today as usual school day but very bored as the first period we slack n watch movie (night at the museum) den after that there's 3 period of art and it's so bored that i feel like going home to sleep!! feeling very moody and went out of the class to emo at the coridor.. edmund came and talk to me and i started crying out of a sudden!! haiz!! just cannot get him out of my mind!! it's filled with lots of beautiful memory!!

the last period is also free as mrs leong nvr come and we are suppose to do a worksheet but selena went up to class and she cannot find the worksheet.. so we did not do and we slack at the canteen for the 2 period!! was writing letter to jian an abt what he did ytd and talk to shaun abt the PIG(frenly term), BITCH(nasty term)!! LOL!! :p

by than his exam is over and he came down with zihua and talk to kai zhow den after that he went to tok to wei cheong!! so happy to see him there but he did not take a look at me so i oso dun bother about him!! when they wanted to go off, sway sway OM NG walk over and ask them why are they there toking to our class the people and so they kana punish 20 push up!! so sad!! :(

after school, went opposite to eat luch and went back home!!

if only time can stop and go back to the past,

i would treasure the moment as much as i can!!

all i can say now is i love you lots!!

why will i create this blog!!

the reason why i cannot sleep is i am thinking too much!!
i am very confuse if i should give up on HIM or not!!
yesterday i have made a very big mistake to send him that night msg and this he started to avoid me.. :( i really regret it alot!!
there is this quote: if you love someone, set it free. if he comes back, he's yours. if he never returns, he's never yours!!

in school, something happen today.. it's about what jian an and kai zhow say.. it really piss me off and it's embarassing!! they are suaning me about what i send to HIM yesterday as night message infront of alot of boys.. so i went back to my seat to do the book that mr kuek ask us to do and i feel like crying.. but tears just cannot come out and this makes me feel very uncomfortable!!

in the night, i suddenly cry and i feel like talking to someone but i found nobody online!! after that, i went to call clara and talk to her and tell her what had happened.. she ask me why i never tell her why i never tell her about the incident in school and if she know she will help me to scold them!!
after talking to clara i feel much better and i start to tell her what alicia tell me..
all thanks to her that i am feeling better now!! fren, thanks for lending me your listening ear!!
this is oso a special day!! if we are still together its the 11th month!! but it's all the past.. :(

if i would to love you again, i would love you wholeheartedly!!

I LOVE YOU!!

first time to create a blog!!

this is the day when i start making this blog!! think of making blog quite long le but dunno how to make.. den went to ask clara and she teach me in msn.. by making this blog i can pour all my sorrows here and i will not feel tt bad le!!